Our Path Of Love

Saturday, September 30, 2006

it's all coming to an end.
after this yr..everything's changing.

learn to live without
learn to make new friends
grab opportunities (or rather, wrest)
become a machine probably

dunno where this is ultimately going..
hmm..actually i know.
but what i pictured to be sacred and impt, who would think that i'll leave it outside?
there will probably be a phase in life..when results are passe, and the next stage of life begins.
i'll just watch and give my blessings.
escapism? i'd probably decide to tag it on my life.

i wish to find sumplace, sumwhere, where i feel relevant.
i wish to strengthen my bond with my relatives.
if i was financially able and independent, i'll take care of my grandma. (she's still working)
whenever i see her..
there're so many things unspoken but felt deeply.
if possible..and if lady luck kicked me hard in the butt, get me a scholarship.
i know the path i'll take, and i know its long and costly..i want to be responsible for my own education as soon as i can.

life's calling

posted @ 9:03 am

Monday, September 25, 2006

7 days more

i dunno.

friends? erm..nah. let's just say i can't keep my promise again.

i live in Mars. u, Earth.
Me: %$^%#^#*&*$%^#$@(*&???
U: ---silence---

Why wun Earthlings look at Martians?

Why do Martians feel so distant from Earthlings?

We are neighbours..aren't we?

...
Hey Earthlings! My planet is beautified! Doesnt it look cool?
the Sunnians are in awe. the Venusians are just as mesmerized.

I've got the best and latest technology amongst the planets!

Jupiter with its size isnt in the least comparable to me.

Hey!
Hey!
"no reply"
....
my technology is gone. im back to the old warm red planet.

won't u look at me?

the solar system is afterall a vacuum

would sum astronauts study my planet please?
who would understand.

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my planet's in orbit, so do u.

and i wait and crave for the day i meet u.

i did in the past, but i din expect an eclipse to happen in ur planet.
i try to shake myself free from the gravitational pull from the Sun.

my consistent effort paid off in sum ways.

i succeeded.

but now im out of the solar system. alone.

posted @ 11:36 pm

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

GRRRWWAAAAHHHHH!!!

Why doesn't this noise ever stop?!

wth...with all the drilling and hammering right above me...tickling my ear at the threshold of pain.
DRRRRRRR...ah..the trumpet.
KOK KOK KOK..ah..the triangle.

..it really pays if u try to engage ur mind before ur mouth when u are agitated..
it keeps u really calm and maybe even..
I GIVE UP! SHUT UP!!!
sum1 tell me watta do.
erm...Mr. Drill, can u lower down ur volume? i have a practical test tmr..
O u will? Thankyou!
O yes, Mr. Hammer, i really wish u will kindly do the same..will u?
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silence. much treasured silence.

the hammer's broke into 2? the drill has been chipped?
god bless my ceiling.
.
OK OK..OK OK...
O K !!
it's back.

i'm outta the house. if not i'll be drinking chemicals tmr with eyes open.

posted @ 2:40 pm

Monday, September 18, 2006

wah... early in the morning Mr. Chen came to shock me..tell me i got 1 entire part din do for my Chem Exam. yujia still sae a lot of marks.. feel like dying le..
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all these days during prelim i was just doing nothing. other than mugging, i spent a big portion of my time on art and craft. haha...shocking right? i made a small box with a lid, a bigger box w/o, a whiteboard from the photo-holder which i broke, and 2 80% done woodcrafts; a European trading ship and a Holland windmill. slacking like nobodies' business. haha....
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Hmm..what's left of my 'prelims'?
i have 2 exercises to be done tmr and the day after, dn i hv a secret chem practical lesson.
haha...if it was even possible for me to win any1 of u in any subjects, i'm really sorry. im nt trying to be a snob, but cos i noe its nt justified. i really din study much and dun deserve good results.
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whatever the case, countdown 60 days to end of O's.
Best of luck to every1 who raced with time, chomped books, swallowed all kinds of boredom and loneliness in ur endeavour in preparation of prelims.
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You've worked hard. You've my admiration. You deserve a pat on the back. (and i mean it)

posted @ 6:14 pm

Thursday, September 07, 2006

yeah..my laptop is ready. finally.

BEST OF LUCK to all rvsj competitors this sat. not hurt. hope that all goes well and their effort gets paid off. no pain..Guys and girls...just go there and put up ur best show k? its been very long. Failing is fine. Aiming for second best isn't.

posted @ 11:43 pm

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

ARGH!!!

ARGH!!!

quite long since i even came..

I WANNA SHOUT!!!

prelims is like so..stressing..

how am i to concentrate??

seriously wad's the point?!

studysohardgetintogoodjcthengetagoodjobearnlotsamoney

where's happiness?

i see a 'h'..ya..'a' also..

arh! 'p' dun have...

SERIOUSLY I DON'T SEE A POINT IN STUDYING!!!

lost...so lost...very lost...

gimme sum directions can?

very simple...just tell me wad to do..or point me to the road..

let the first vehicle take me down.

i see myself really changing..

n its scary..cos i seem out of control.

y does so many things havta crash into critical periods..

n why are there critical periods in the first place?

wad's happiness?

a materialistic life?

no wait! dun deny this str away.

ppl hu really pursue high life are seen as superficial.

tt's repeated over n over again by ur tchers. ur initial reaction is testament to this fact.

but are they really superficial? or whatever it is donned on these ppl..are they really tt bad?

this point aside.

ok. so being materialistic is bad.

so..who needs a high paying job?

we all SHOULD aim to be contented with sufficient income.

as for the excess, maybe we should give them to the needy.

for ppl plagued more r less by laziness as most ppl are, just get an easy job.

it doesnt require extremely high qualifications..y nt?

who imposes a decree that one MUST do charity? no surplus, no excess, nevermind.

then back to the qn.

WHY SHOULD WE WORK SO HARD AND PULL OUR HAIRS OVER EXAMS???

EXAMS THAT OPEN OUR DOORS TO HIGH PAYING JOBS...WHO NEEDS THEM???

to hell with everything.

there are many ans to my qns. n i noe them.

after 12 yrs ++ of mindset surgery and knowledge injection

its not hard to see the pencil marks behind the thick, hardened correction fluid on which words are phrased in millions of permutations to speak one kind of 'doctrine'.

cynicism aside...its really stressing..the patient has to wake up in the operating room at times with the red light on.

posted @ 5:45 pm